7/25/2006

7/12/2006

After all...

Thanks for those who already read the latest journal that i entered yesterday night, sorry for all the bad words. Anyway, i deleted the journal. For those who miss it, try to be faster next time, then you won't miss it. :)

It is not a good thing for me to 'air' people sin since me myself are sinners too. Anyway, just want to let you all know that i'm still unhappy with the incident but i will let go of it.

Remember, don't do the same mistake again. If you want to commit to any sin, commit it on your own. Don't ask your friend to do it together with you. It's just like you want to die, then you ask your friend to die together with you. You might not see the impact but your friend and his/her family will. So, don't involve your friend in those bad things.....

6/15/2006

责任

我们曾经用跑得去做生活里的每一件事,然后,慢慢的,我们走的,再慢慢的,那脚步变得越来越沉重。沉重脚步上拖着的是一个死气沉沉的身子,身子上背着的是重重的担子,担子里装着的是一种叫压力的东西。压力为什么会存在?为什么会落在人的担子里?

压力因为人有责任感而产生。因为对父母,对家庭,对朋友,对社会,对每一个对自己有期望的人而负起的责任。为了父母拼了老命的读书,为了家庭不停的武装自己保护他们,为了朋友自己扛起一切的问题,为了社会不愿意丢人现眼,为了每一个对自己有期望的人光宗耀祖。为了所有的为了,我们背上了压力。

拖着脚步走了一段路,发现了身上的担子拖累了自己,于是停了一下想放下包袱歇一会儿。忽然,耳边有一股声音响起,鞭策我们,于是我们又不得不上路。就这样,为了所有的为了,我们没有了思想的能力,没有了生存的力气,只有不停走的耐力。

有人走了好长一段路,终于没了力气,停了下来,从止不再站起来向前迈步。他不是不能站起来,只是无法面对站起来后前面毫无止境的道路与脚步。有人有耐力也有意志力,一直拖着脚步走,到最后完全没有力气抬起头呼吸,带着重重的压力窒息而死。

6/01/2006

Decision...

I decided to resign after 10 months in this company...it's not because of my boss neither the company, it's because I think this is the time for me, I need to move on in my life.

I'm lucky enough to be with a good boss since my 1st job after my graduation. This safe and secure job protected me in a comfort zone till I don't dare to jump out at all. Deep in my heart, I know i have to move on or else I'll stay in this comfort zone till the day I die....but the courage to move on dissapear day by day. Before it really disapear and before I choose to work and die peacefully in this company, i make the decision to leave....I'm looking for trouble in my life...to keep me young :P

While serving my notice period, there are still some uncertainty in my heart. I don't really know what will happen in future, I'm not sure whether i have make the decision but when my god brother told me this, I suddenly feel that i have the strength again. I share it out because I know you might need this sentense too.....

"In life there is no right or wrong decision. After u make that decision, it is your responsible to make it right."