Accident on 22 April 2006

First of all, guess what car is it. Second, think of a way why and how can this car become in this situation. Third, guess who is the driver.

Answer: 1. Proton Iswara, 2. Lost control at a corner and bang on a wall (may be can say a gate with cement). 3. The driver is my BF.

Found this picture suddenly, show just show it to all of you. I really learned a lot from this accident. I recognized a low class workshop too. It's Chop Chin Hooi, located at Jalan Perak. I sold the car at really low price lastly.

Who am I if I'm not whom I am?

It is never an easy job for being the eldest in a family especially if your family is not rich… I started to work since form 3 and supported myself since then. I can even give extra to my family especially after working during my holiday. That was an easy thing for supporting me alone and supporting my family only when I can. I am still feeling proud of my independent till now.

Now, I am already a working adult. Still the same, I support my family and myself as well. Weird thing is, situation become harder when I am already working. Pay for the car that I bought, petrol, toll, house rental, PTPTN loan, supporting my brother’s study in college, give money to my family, insurance, payment for any urgent circumstances happened……all these things show that I have more responsibility. It also shows that it is harder to fulfill my plan for my future.

I feel thankful that the environment that i grew up trained me to be an independent person; it also trained me to be responsible to everything that I am doing. I will always make sure that I am doing the best I can no matter where am I. I have my own principle and I have my own limit to protect myself.

In the other hand, this environment force me to be a defensive person. I will start to defend once you reach my limits. It is not easy to get near to me. I will not tolerance unless you show the facts. I will really feel upset if I failed to achieve my goal and expectation.

Hence, for those who know me, you will feel that I am quite a contradict person. I change always. Sorry if I did make you feel unhappy, I will try to change. May be I should say thanks to the environment where I grew up but cannot ignore that this environment also caused difficulty in my future….

What if I got a chance to choose, will I choose to become whom I am now? What will happen if I am not grew up in this environment? I’ll never know….but I can still do my best with what I have now…..

Just give me a cheers when you see me, k? I’ll really appreciate it……………..

Hui Lin's Birthday..........

Our cutiest Xiang Yi with her flying colour 'result'...all the crab...

Kindly present the 'Sao Sing Poh' with her crab:P

All Young and Pretty girls in my department, all are still single. Interested?

Before that, you have to look at what we have eaten and how much we have eaten....still dare to? hahahaha.

My Mysterious Sis

Those who always ask me about my mysterious sister, this is how she looks like :P. She is going to kill me soon when she read this blog.

My Cute Cute Family

Haha, you won't believe that my family will have this kind of 'faces'. Tell you what, actually all of us can really make fun when we are in a good mood :D.

Don't believe it? This is the proof!! :P

camera.............

These are photos i took with my new Casio Exilim Camera. The quality is good? I'm not really sure about it yet. Don't really have time and mood to test it, but going to study about it this weekend.

Post these for your review 1st while waiting for me to study about the function :). See ya, wish me to have a great weekend with the camera :P.

Happy!!

Yeye (jumping around like monkey), hahahaha (laughing like crazy people)….Why?! I got a brand new camera!!! How I got it? Don’t ask, I just got it and I would like to thanks ‘him’ :P.

It’s so cool with its color, its size….and everything is really great :D. It has been a long time since I took a good picture. I passed my old camera to my siblings and then I didn’t took that much photo anymore.

Now, I announce that I got my new camera already!! That means I’ll take more photo and flood this blog :P. Hahahaha (laughing crazily again). I haven’t use it yet since I have to charge 8 hours 1st. I will try it tonight and tell you how is it, k?

Wait for it :)

'Behind the scene'

Haha, let me share some ‘over confident’ cases in Superstar audition.

After most of the early birds went in to the waiting room, a gang of youth came in. I think there are 3 guys and 2 girls. Not much people realize about them at first because all seems like settle down already and the camera operator was in the waiting room.

Suddenly, someone sing loudly somewhere……….For your information, beside the waiting room, there is a life with a small lobby and we realize that the sound was from there. Then everything turned up site down in a second. Another camera set up, all the superstar workers, reporters rushed to there. Some workers go into the waiting room and inform the host about this.

They really get the attention of public. To tell you the truth, I feel that she can sing quite good…compared to people like me but I really cannot stand her way to get attention. She just jump here and there (really ‘high’) like a drunken woman, talk loudly like we are dump some more act like a gangster. Can you imagine that our 2nd superstar is her?

The funniest thing is, when the host asked her what is she doing there, why she is singing so loud, she said she ‘curi-curi’ to train her voice. The host reaction was like : “Like this also call curi-curi ar? Then all the other participants never train lor?” She is confident that she can go into the superstar competition already, she sing, then ask her friend to sing, force her friend to sing, some more duet with her friend. O, ya, after the crew concentrate for those who is in the waiting room, she said: “Don’t show my face on the TV ya, my mom didn’t know that I come here, I beg you!”

Everybody was sizzling, if you really don’t want to show your faces on TV, if you really don’t want your mom to know, you won’t sing so loud and do all the funny things to attract attention :D. She didn’t get into the competition for sure but I think she feel satisfy….At lease she can really show her face on TV and so many people standby outside the audition room when she go in. The crew even let her cool down herself before they interview her after she failed. She cry like hell ler.............

This is just one of the show ‘behind the scene’, may be it will show next time, but I watch it live, I think it worth waiting there for 5 hours :D. Thanks, dear, your show helped me to pass my waiting time.

Want more stories? Next episode coming soon.......

Superstar...........:P

As you all see, I was there on the superstar audition day. I was there for a purpose but for sure not for audition. Don't believe?! Then you don't have to believe : P. I was there for 5 hours, sitting and walking around, hence i see all those 'behind the scene' story. It is interesting.

I do not dare to publish some 'special effect' photo here, or else someone will kill me. Other then all those funny, cute, brave, scary scene that you can see on the scene, there are a lot of other scene that you won't dare to see......

A lot of superstar candidate queuing up for registration. There are some faces where you cannot move your eyes from them because they are already shining like a superstar. You can feel the nervous, the confident and the ‘over confident’ by looking at them. For me, most of them are beautiful….because they have the courage to be the ‘dream catcher’. They attended the audition because they have dream……

Youth, go for it!! Go for all the chances waiting in front of you while you still can, don’t ever wait. You won’t have too many times.

Superstar project

Wah?! What's this? hahaha, y i got these photo?I joined superstar?!!! Haiyo, no lar but i was there on the audition day :P. Enjoyed the day by looking around. Want to know more? Come back later :P.

白色巨塔

最近在看一部连戏剧，白色巨塔， 我想这部戏有好多的人都在看，因为电视上正在播。

老实说，这部戏还真开对了我的胃口。一部讲述医院里的政治，世人的无能为力，人性的美与丑，世界上的黑白，当然，还有世界灰暗的戏。我，相信这世界上，每一天，在每一个角落里，都不停的在上演着这一部戏。这也是为什么这部戏在台湾上映的时候会引起那么多的争论。因为，人，习惯隐藏自己的丑陋，美化自己的人格。

我爱看，就是因为它残忍的，写实的将人最真，最丑的那一面，挖出来。我也很残忍对不对？哈，因为，在某一个层面上，我也是其中的一的主角。不要否认，你如果有看那一部片子，很肯定的，你一定会在里面见到你曾经拥有，甚至现在还拥有的哪一个你。

我有时候是苏玉华，有时候是邱副， 有时候是马懿芬，有时候却是其中一个任人摆布的病人。告诉你，如果你没看过这部片子，你应该去看一看，你一定会见到你自己。。。。。。。一定。。。。

We

We were sitting near a night market, the sky was dark, light was yellow. Many people passed by. A lot of words, a lot of dialogue, we tell the stories hidden inside our heart.

We were sitting in a coffee house; the yellow light with special designed sofa makes the romantic and lazy environment. Everything was so quiet, including us. No any word and dialogue but we communicate.

We were on the phone, messaging each other. Different place, different environment but we are communicating. A lot of words, no dialogue, we still understand each other.

We are far yet so close, we are close yet so far…..

You are not GOD!

You are clever does not mean you are right.
You are reading my blog does not mean I am writing about you.
You are interpreting does not mean I am communication with you.
You are assuming does not mean I have to follow your assumption.
You are talking does not mean I am listening.
You are suffering does not mean I am not helping.
You are earning less does not mean I have to follow your life style.
You are not going for holiday does not mean I cannot go.

Remember, not everybody think like what you think, not everybody do things for you, not everybody have you as their only friend, not everybody owe you things, not everybody has to be responsible to you.

Your life is yours, other people life are theirs, all these life might related to each other but no body have their rights to control others life. No body can force others to make the decision that they do not want to make.

Long Holiday Coming

I'm looking for a great holiday plan...anybody can help???!!!!

This is never a fair world!!!

Again, I will turn my blog in a battle place!!! I was in 'here' for more then 3 months....I learned a lot, the environment is good, training is good, the boss is good....until today....I felt bad with the people in 'here'....
Everything seems peaceful here, we love each other, we have pot luck always, we celebrate birthdays, events....seems really a good place.....But under all these things....we have things like 'golden finger', 'see how you die', 'I caught you', 'I got it but you don't', ' want it? Plead me'...we also have things like 'why tell everybody? We celebrate only with those who come earlier'
These things happened underground everyday, everywhere. I don't mind if you all play yourself...but why I become the victim....??!!! I know, is because I am new, I just joined...but why all junior become your victim?
Although some of us are not really consider origin from this 'family', we are under one roof, we meet more then 9 hours a day, we do the same things, why you got those 'rewards' but we didn't? If it is really a 'rewards' that you will owned it then I can understand because we are different. However, the 'rewards' are just something where we can use it to help this 'family', why cannot you just lend it to every one of us? Is not give is just 'LEND'...
Anyway, just for my own comfort and motivation, I go home on time compared to those special one. Just to prevent myself from killing people :P. Of course, I will still finish my work before I go, I will not spoil my own reputation just because of ‘them’. Dissatisfaction is still dissatisfaction; I will still do my part :D.

So, do not worry, I will not disappointed you all!!

Don't really understand wor................

I found some thing that I do not understand:

‘They’ stopped people at the road side because they suspect something but ended up being kill because don’t know suspect on the car will have weapon……

‘They’ work in a team, but suddenly found they team mate died after fire fighting with the suspect…..because kena tembak by orang sendiri…..

‘They’ are legal in ‘collecting’ money ‘under the table’ but stopped a long from collecting the money in the public……

‘They’ are the protector…..but they are protecting……bad guys?

‘They’ suppose to be very brave……but always come after the incident ended?

You know who am I talking about? Haha, only clever people will know :P.

Good guy and Bad guy

It seems like we will be happier now a days by being a bad person. You didn't realize? Let me tell you about it.

If you are bad enough, you can rob people on the road, as long as you can run faster then others and if you are lucky enough, you might earn more then a year income for other people in just a few minutes. If too unlucky, those heroes catch you and police officer charged you. You don't have money to pay for lawyer, don't worry, lawyer provided to help you.....If too bad again, the lawyer failed to help you. Does not worry too much, room and food provided. Professional will plan a healthy life style for you. Wake up, exercise, eat, entertainment on time everyday. If you are sick, doctor provided. You will be under perfect protection 24 hours. No accident, no rape, no snatch thieves, no murder…….unless you are mean to die….No worries on earning, spending, a lot of your staff working hard outside to pay for your living. Everywhere you go, car provided.

If you are a good person, you being rob on the road. The thief might hurt you before he manage to run away. If you are unlucky enough, no heroes help you on the spot, thieve ran away. You have to log a report, too bad, you meet ‘polite’ police officer said that this is such a small case, happened more then 10 times a day, they will not spend too much energy on this case…unless you die. The police still good enough to help you by telling you where to reapply your IC and driving license, then charge you RM 2 ringgit for the copy of report. No protection, no time for exercise, no time for entertainment, no time for healthy food, need to work to get food, need to work then seek so that you can pay the doctor, need to work till too tired to sleep on a comfortable bed……The most important thing is, you have to work hard for your ‘bosses’ staying in the room provided……

May be I should consider being a bad person……………….

talking nonsense

Another boring day here.........all my team went out for team building.....Why am i not going? because i'm not the internal worker...

Emm...so what am i doing? for sure is bloggin lor, or else, how can you read this lovely story ler? Haha, sounds weird when talk like this :P. Anyway, i'm really sad with my English level now, seems like nowadays, people easily feel confronted with my email........

I really don't understand.........at 1st, my original motive is to help......too bad...every time it'll ended up in the other way.......That makes me really feel like want to stop communicating using English.........

Do i have any choice now? No!!! My working environment, my living environment, my circle of friends.............most of them don't understand Chinese.........Don't misunderstand again....i'm not saying that English educated people are wrong, i'm just saying that i miss communicating using Chinese.......

Please....Don't misunderstand..............die.....................

Welcome to my new home!!

After all, i finally owned my pure chinese home!! It's really great, i love my new home very much. Anyway, don't worry, i won't forget about my old homw, both of it are my home, i'll take care both of it.....

http://blog.sina.com.cn/u/1252898665

Welcome!! Hope you can enjoy yourself there :). May be you would like to leave a message so that i know you were there. I'll be more then happy to know :D.

Need a trip

I suppose to have a trip to Cameron next weekend....i have been waiting for this day for so long, applied for leave already.....but unfortunately, the trip has been CANCELLED.......

How sad am i when i know the trip is cancelled....Just like a little girl who is so happy when you told her that you will have a party for her but ended up you cancel it.......

Anyway, started to look forward for another planning already. Hope to have more and more trip in future..........

This is another way to fulfill my dream since i was young too. Came from a poor family make me have no choice to go for a trip, now, i'm earning money on my own....althought I still have to give a part to my family, I think is still ok if i use a part for my own to fulfill my own dream, right? Sounds selfish, am i? Oooopppsssss.....don't think too much, can't think too much, must just plan and go....or else i'll ended up cancel another trip again.............

这个世界

这个世界还剩什么？人之初，性本善，有吗？真的是这样吗？

现在的人，无论是小孩，年轻人，大人，甚至是老人，都不值得信赖了。也许我这样讲，很多人都会说我愤世疾俗，可是我就遇到好多这样的人。。。

今天我妈的车给一个老伯伯撞了。他在大道收费站停车掏钱的时候，车子不停的往后退，好多人都看见了，不停的按喇叭想让他知道，可是他没停下来，就撞上了我妈的车。他竟敢不顾一切的想踩油而去。我妈截了他，他还说他没有逃。

后来绕了一大圈，他答应我们回去报警。最想不到的事，那个对我说是他错，他一定会负责任的阿伯，竟敢报警说是我们撞他。。。。。车牌PES 7139的罗里司机，还有一辆PDR7872的车子，名叫LEONG AH SAM,身份证号码：380227-06-5149. 涉嫌在8月30日的晚上8.30分，在槟威大桥，北海往槟城方向的收费站撞了逃，请目击者联络我。此人在以下公司工作，他家的罗里是这家公司的：

EURO CHEMO-PHARMA SDN BHD
6762,2ND fLOOR,
JALAN KAMPUNG GAJAH,
12200 BUTTERWORTH,
PULAU PINANG.

也请任何认识他的人远离他，如果你和他的公司有生意上的来往也请三思。既然他和他的公司那么不负责任，和他们有来往也会让你们有同样的风险。

其实我们的车损失并不太大，但是，他的行为真的是很令我不齿。他的所作所为，就好像宣告一个老人杀了人就可以若无其事的走掉，甚至反过来告死者，说他攻击他。他的老板就像一个包庇凶手的人，帮助他做假口供。如果她那天晚上对我道歉，告诉我他不能赔，我还是会放了他，但是为什么他还骗人呢？为什么还要恶人先告状呢？

请别轻易相信你身边的人，即使是一个很老的阿伯。

月亮

一直觉得自己像月亮，一颗甘心乐意绕着地球转的月亮。六年级就在规划的未来，是一个要让自己找到那颗围绕的地球。地球和月亮之间，存在的可以是爱情，亲情，友情，也可以是在事业上找到的一个重心。

走到了今天，爱情，亲情的地球都出现了，事业的呢？我也在找着。也许就是因为这种希望当月亮的梦，我一直一直都在寻找，找一个进入娱乐圈的机会。那不是一个当明星的梦，我不想当明星。 我只是希望我可以在他们身后为他们打造，完成他们的梦。

台湾，这一个国家，从我想当月亮开始，就从来没在我的梦想图中消失。马来西亚是我的祖国，我爱他； 但是，我也爱台湾。台湾，对我来说，是一个圆梦的地方。没有台湾的存在，我的梦就没有飞翔的领域。在二十出头的这个时候，我知道，如果我再飞不到那个目的地，我的梦，也许就要客死异乡了。

月亮，台湾，梦想，事业，在四个名词中间，我努力寻找那个画上等号的可能， 在那所剩无几的青春里。。。。。。。你看见吗？感受到吗？你，也在寻找吗？

公主般的梦幻式生活vs实实在在的现实生活

公主般的梦幻式生活，是怎么样的一种生活呢？被很多的人捧在手心上疼？被很多人围绕讨好？出门有司机载？穿很多美丽也冲来不会重复的衣服？住在很大很大的房子里？房间里要有很大的床，还要有很多洋娃娃在身边？

哇，我想这种生活对我来说是很遥远吧？真的是很遥远哦。。。。。

就连要习惯被人疼都好难。不要控制人家，不要控制环境，不要武装自己，不要保护别人。。。要反过来顺服人家，要跟着环境变化，要放下防备的心，要被人保护。。。。真的是个不可能的任务哦。我可以梦想要成为一个公主，可是当我梦想成真的时候，我能放下身段吗？

实实在在的现实生活，向来都是怎样的呢？被很多人存心积虑的陷害？被很多假惺惺的人围绕？出门会面对太多的色狼？穿不同的衣服也不代表美丽？住在很小的鸽子屋？房间里只有一张很薄的褥子？没蚊子蟑螂已经可以谢天谢地，更不用说洋娃娃了。

哇，这种生活未免太残酷了吧？ 也许没那么惨，但我想也差不远吧？ 不过真的是有这样的不幸社会群就在这种情况下生活吧。。。。

Enjoying our trip

Enjoyable and relaxing